I haven't had them often, but today is one of those days when a craving for a beer to escape reality has been strong. I can actually taste the alcohol in my mouth. My hands are sweating and shaking. My mind is racing a hundred miles an hour. I am in a shitty mood.
I didn't realize the impact that talking about Sgt. Barkey would have on me when I did the drawing for the Hamburger Saint Project last night. I had hellacious nightmares through the night and barely got any sleep. The lack of sleep just left me with this crummy feeling all day long. I managed to write two posts earlier. One was a tutorial, but my heart just wasn't in it. I managed to scrape through it and it turned out ok, but I am usually excited to do those posts because I know how helpful they can be for others. The other was about PeerPlays and truthfully just kind of made me shittier. Who really releases a wallet that is only 64 bit compatible?
After posting I looked out in the yard. I know the grass needed to be mowed. Instead, I just went to bed. I thought it would be a nap, but I woke up four hours later. Yeah, it pretty much wasted my day, but I sit here at 9:15 p.m still sober.
I just wanted to write a short post about this sobriety adventure. It's not always easy. I understand there will be days like this and I need to get through them. For someone else going through this. You can do it.
I am resisting and I will make it to my 55th day of sobriety. I will be better and stronger for it. But fuck today was rough.
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