We are slaves of expectation. Every day we look for something, whether it's sunlight, an employer response, or a message from the man we hold. All our lives are surrounded, whether we like it or not, waiting. That's how things go in this world and we can expect.
However, one of the toughest expectations is that of the man you love or love. In the distance relationships, the only thing you want is to have the dear man as close as possible. You can touch the forehead with your palm of your hand and put it in your arms of happiness, just because that word can, you can. Then it's over, for a brief moment, the distance between two heartbeats, the expectations. Oh, however, this expectation of the man you have somewhere far is easier than that of a man you do not know, but you know you will love it somehow, right away.
How many girls and how many boys do not dream about the ideal partner? How many do they not expect? Even those who deny this desire / need feel somewhere deep in their soul. We were created to love. Let's fill our arms not with things but with people. Let us gather in our souls no trophies, but memories of smiles. Let us believe that somewhere, there is one who will love us just as much as we want and love. And that's why we wait for him and we look for him in every one or every one he lives out of his life from time to time.
I kept thinking about our way of waiting and I realized that we often characterize a passive waiting, not an active one. We look for one who will make us happy one day, but until then we still try the sea with his finger. And we try it right, without even feeling a shame of remorse. We throw ourselves so free in the arms of destiny and we finally complain of mercy and we want others to be empathic. However, in ourselves, we have the hope that all these experiences in which we gave our heads, broken the hearts of others and we mutilated ours, will not be a hindrance to our future husband. We are too accustomed to play ourselves and others and finally to be applauded.
This passive expectation, which is actually active for the wrong things, will bring us more frustration than fulfillment. We will become complex, we will think we have a problem or we simply will not see ourselves well enough for a certain person and we will think that we are too little for the whole world. How much courage will we still have to love when we meet the man who should have dismantled any expectation? We will not have the courage, we will love it with the portion, we will enjoy it a little, and we will censor in feelings, words, deeds. We will become exactly what we have always said we will not be.
Yeah, I know, waiting is tough, sometimes boring and annoying. You are frustrated that you are still waiting, and there is nothing on the horizon. I know, however, that active expectation is the one that fulfills and prepares for the encounter of an imperfect man, but who has caught the hands of a perfect God. Active waiting means daily investment in your spiritual growth. Prayer, fasting, good deeds. Even if you are not a believer, you can grow up like a man. Being better every day than you were yesterday and tomorrow altruistic than you were today. Active waiting involves daily training for meeting with him or her. Take care of how you look, how you dress, how you behave, how you grow professionally, read, invest in yourself and others. Give away everything you have, but none of the precious things that are just for him / her.
Maybe so far we have not received or seen that it was a lot to receive, because we were too preoccupied with our passive expectation but active in the wrong things. When do we have time to see the beauty of a man, when our hearts are surrounded by the mud of a failed relationship? When do we hear the whisper of God that says waiting is over, when in our ears yell the heavy words of people who did not have enough love for us because they never knew how to love themselves?
Maybe I have not yet received, because it was wrong the way I waited ...