A bitter sweet Father's day...

I must confess today is a bit of a mixed bag for me. My father is still around, despite it all, and I'm sure we will talk later, but that's not what has me down in the slightest. When I was growing up, the first man I ever called dad was my grandpa, and he's not around anymore. So... It's hard for me to smile in a day like today.

I feel like I should apologize for being a downer, its not really my style. But, I'm also working at being as honest as I can with myself and anyone who knows me. So screw it, what can I say? I miss him. I'm sure I'm not the only one in our family who is having a bit of down day because of the conflicting emotions.

Grandma is in town, this is going to be the third year since he's gone and I'm sure today will turn very emotional as it always does. I might log back on later today, or I might not, who knows? But, its a good day to spend time with the family, talk about some of our fond memories of our little legend, grandpa, and eat something home cooked.

Well my friends, to those who lost a father.... to those who are feeling a little down today, I salute you and send you a big virtual hug. May their memories live with us, until its time to pass on.