So.. I kind of forgot steemit existed... I signed up a year or so ago, and have immense love for you guys, I just got so distracted!!
I was also a little shy and unsure of how to use steem or how to approach the introduce yourself part. I tend to be more of the reserved person, a hermit and stoic. It hasn't always been this way. I think I have a hidden talent for writing, but when it comes to social media, I start to shrivel up back into my shell and hide for days. In the last year, I've had a very touch and go relationship with social media, a bit of a love-hate relationship if you will..
I intend to start writing more here, from now on. I apologize that my writing so far has been sub-par.. not my finest. I just have to get back into the swing of things, and overcome my fear of criticism and being heard or seen. This past year has been one of the toughest. I hail from Orlando, and when the Pulse shooting occurred I was deeply moved, became depressed and lethargic, and didn't really tell anyone about it. I was at Pulse a few months before it happened. One of my former classmates was there when it happened.. Our community was great about coming together and helping in many ways.. offering free counseling or herbal remedies.. I just couldn't bring myself to leave the house for months afterwards. One of the houses I was living in from time to time was 9 minutes away from Pulse.. If I can dig up the pictures I took from the club months before, I will do another post or maybe add them to this one later, if that's an option.
So on top of dealing with my pre-existing mental illness, and the death of a close friend (about the same age as me at the time) I also had to find a way to grieve and let go. I've also been questioning my sexual identity for the past few years, but never openly. After this occurred, I was afraid to explore that even further..
It helps to have a community of friendly individuals to share things with, so for that I am eternally grateful. Thanks guys/gals/ in betweens..
I don't have a strong support system outside of this, so I hope steemit can be my new haven. It certainly seems that way. Just remember: It takes courage to be openly vulnerable.
Also- again- I need to do an introduction post still... to be continued...
Thanks for listening! and being!