My life may not have been the perfect kind but I'm very sure I've been giving my younger self a lot of proud moments than she ever thought would happen at the time they did. Doing life is not an easy feat and I believe it's harder for some and it isn't for some but we must do it anyways.
I've learnt so much growing up but the most recent realization I had is where I've made a big move that have been changing so many things about my life, positively. I'm saying it's realization because somehow I've been learning of it but I never considered acting on what I have learned.
Whenever I have to try something new or go to a new place, I've always been skeptical or scared to go for it. I would think of the failures that may come out of it before I force myself to think positively about it, this made me miss good opportunities that I didn't realize were good ones.
But my recent realization and decision to do something without thinking negativity into it has opened more ways for me to keep improving for the better. I can already see my younger self counting more proud moments from now onwards. It's all thanks to my recent realization.
I found the power and happiness in giving, I've not always been the generous type but since recently, it's like I've been doing it all my life and I wish that was the case. Although right now, I tend to be very intentional about who, where and how I give but I'm hoping to become more flexible in it.
Why I see this as a big move that has changed my life so much is because I've become more happier seeing other happy for the little I do, I feel at ease more and I catch myself thinking more on what I can do for others than just idling away my thoughts. Things have been looking up for me.
I've been struggling with my health for a while since recently and I'm still surprised by how much people turned up to pray for me mentioning the things I've done to help them in their prayers, I thought their offer to pray for me was priceless but it was unbelievable what they said in prayers.
I know things may not always be rosy and great but so far, I've been so proud of the decision I made to put in more effort in helping others than what I had been doing. That decision have also pushed me to sign up for a training I had thought would be difficult so I could have more to help.
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