Is it too late to say sorry to someone who has left this world ?
It is about an elderly someone who loved and cared for me so much that I would find his interference in everything I did.
With his years of experience being almost two times my age then,he had developed the skill of sniffing to sense any trouble and be overly protective before a problem actually took shape.
I know, having an angel like guardian around you is a blessing ,but with the passage of time, I was feeling sick of answering to questions like where I went, why I wanted to do something, who were my friends, why somebody was being nice to me and a long volley of questions would be thrown at me only for my own good.
I recollect that day when I had blasted furiously and misbehaved and thrown things out of their place and screamed using foul words and crossed all levels of hooliganism to break free.
As time passed by,I realised that every single word that came from his mouth began to come true,as if the future had foretold him everything .people I trusted betrayed me.The ladder that took me up to success now brought me down to failures.I was failing in everything and in every way. 'karma' was hovering over my head for my wrong doings.
But MY Ego would never let me go back to him ever again !
One fine morning I decided to walk back again on the path that I had once left behind and made way to where he lived.
I was too late.
My angel like guardian had now become my guardian angel.
Last year ,before winter fall,I recollect I had turned blind to the call that had come from him.
That was when he was counting his last few breaths and wanted to speak to me before he got down from his train.
Not having him around anymore is my biggest punishment.I can't have him by my side anymore but all I want to say is
I am sorry, I am sorry, I am sorry. Though I do not deserve his forgiveness for all that I have done .
May his soul rest in peace.Amen.