Heaven knows we need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth, overlying our hard hearts. I was better after I had cried, than before — more sorry, more aware of my own ingratitude, more gentle.”
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— Charles Dickens**
In life, when things get teary and weary, it’s always best to accept them as they are rather than trying to ignore and unsee them.
That’s never a way to get better, and no one has ever been able to solve a problem without admitting they existed.
This year has been one of the years where I cried, screamed and rambled about many things I saw as an obstacle in my personal life situation.
And just as every life situation is merely a matter of admitting accepting or ignoring, many still choose to be unable to accept their personal issues due to trying to be brave and strong.
Some would even say it’s being weak to cry and be sorry for yourself. I thought they were true until 2023 came, and I realized that the first step to solving a problem is admitting that they existed in the first place and if it got you to the point where you became emotional and got teary eyes, that’s when you’re one step closer to a solution.
At the beginning of the year, I had many expectations and hope for the year. But then I knew that if I was to make all this, I had to get one main issue out of the way.
I should’ve made the move at the beginning of the year, but my ego won’t let me and this went on and on with me moving between the highs and lows of life.
Even my health was deteriorating, and I could vividly see this without being diagnosed yet. However, I wasn’t going to admit them all due to the fact that I’m trying to be strong and brave.
But it got to a point that I can’t even sleep nor get anything done. And this was around November. I knew I messed up and had to seek for help. I did, and I certainly got help from family and friends, which got me to weep for myself for being too strong for long and not admitting I needed to get help.
Many others are like this. In fact, many of my friends are and are still in this same loophole of battling highs and lows without looking for a way out, all due to being strong and not being able to admit that sometimes crying and seeking for help isn’t a sign of weakness but shows how much you care about you and those around you too.