From the very beginning the work did not work out, from the start I got a big minus, played it, then got a huge minus, but again I played it. Then once again I got into a huge disadvantage, at this point the market drank all my nerves from me and I, like the last loser, climbed to live which killed me. The horse against which I put, ran first in the end for a day minus, which will have to work out a week. The funny thing is, I counted, I close the third big minus to live, on the day's end I would have finished with a plus anyway. The system pulled out, it is not its failure, it is the weakness of my consciousness, there was not enough will and character. I thought that I had already got rid of such mistakes, but I realized that the struggle with self never ends. For a long time I was still tethered, I could not calm down, I even had to pull 30 grams before going to bed, my ex-wife's eyes caught on the forehead. When I told her what the matter was, she said that I had been jinxed, sort of like I had been without minuses for three months, was rubbish about my work, and now get it. In my opinion, superstition does not need anything. Trade should not depend on human envy, moon phase, zodiac signs, etc. The market is a complex mechanism that changes constantly and in the end I still have to fall into its antiphase, when the serial minuses go. True, if the phase drags on, then we must look for failures in the trading system. It's just math, bought cheap, sold expensive, no mysticism.
To start after yesterday was scary, even at first the knees trembled, then everything went away. In general, I successfully traded, only once I made a mistake that could draw on the minus minus, which is the way to frustration. Nevertheless, carried and to avoid this negative factor (there are so many), tightened the rules to the maximum. I resigned myself to the fact that I will have more minuses, and even minus days in general, but for nothing, I do not want to go through yesterday's "knockout", the rules should be unshakable. On the total amount earned for September, I already repulsed the minus, I will assume that during these four days, I received a very expensive but obvious lesson. Damn, when everything is already settling down and normal work begins without shocking losses and casual profits, the market will take them away anyway. I will answer myself, it will never happen. It can be assumed that if the same group of players are present on the market and some average liquidity level is observed, then there will be a stable result, but as soon as they begin to put more or less, or people come with new systems, everything will become turn upside down.
I realized that I needed to rest. The bag is collected, before the train 4 hours, ahead of 3 days in Balaklava. I hope the weather will not spoil the diving, but at the same time I will think about my behavior, that I do not like the way I trade in September. Until communication and good days!
P / S. Pennys Dragon, which polynomial picks up such nicknames for horses? Although to be surprised, that yesterday was immoral, today is in the order of things, and tomorrow it is even very desirable.
