I’d say for someone my age and where I am, my life is just getting started. But there are days I feel I might have messed up my life to some extent due to some of my actions. If I’m to be honest, my brain refuses to recall those times no matter how hard I try and I’d like to believe it’s some sort of coping mechanism to not think about all these mistakes I believe I might have made. What my brains did instead is think about the changes I’ve made in my life and how far I’ve come.
But if I’m to be honest, some part of me still holds on to the past. The feeling that some of my actions may be used to judge me years later even though I’m totally a different person now. I mean, it’s easy to associate people with their past and judge them without knowing the effort they’ve had to put to get to where they are. We have seen people lose high positions because someone decided to talk about something they said 20 years ago and get people to cancel them. As bad as it is, it does happen.
I didn’t commit any crime to get me to that stage but I feel it’s been hard for me to let go of some of the wrong choices I made years ago. But then again, I realize nothing is going to come out of worrying and holding on to the past. What matters is the kind of life I’m building today, the changes I’ve made and the vision I have for myself.
I see myself growing into the best version of me and I am willing to take all the steps it requires to get there because I mean, no one is gonna do it for me- and I only have one life so, I must make it count.
image belongs to me.
