If there’s one thing about trauma that I’ve come to know, it’s the fact you never see the world the same way again and even if you do, it would take you a very long time to get there. As human as we are, we always hope for the best. But sometimes things do happen to us that we believe shouldn’t happen to us. However, life just has its own way of doing things.
I for one used to be the kind of person who saw the world in a very positive light. Everything white to me and I lived my very best life until I had a near death experience one faithful and peaceful day. It was nothing out of the ordinary- it was a normal day that turned out later to be the worst day of my life. I don’t speak about it, but I live it almost everyday.
That particular day, I almost lost my life to someone I don’t know and have never met. What was this person thinking- I’d never know. Did they know me?- I’d never know. So many whys go through my mind but at the end of the day, we thank God for life and the opportunity to have a second chance once again.
Till date, I’ve tried my best to always live my life the best way I can and always have buts never been the same for me since that incident. I’m super anxious, I hardly step out at night and panic attacks have become an everyday thing for me. Any little thing and I’m panicking my life away. I have become so hypersensitive that I sometimes don’t even know who I am because I’m not able to live as freely and openly again without what ifs.
At the end of the day, I know that I can’t keep living this way. I am walking the steps and I’m making sure to get the necessary help that I can so as to be able to live my best life. Sometimes we don’t deserve what happens to us and so we must not make these events define who and what we are. It could have happened to anyone , so don’t dwell on it because if you do ,your life might never be the same.
Learn to move away from the hurt and the trauma because it is only then that you will be an able to live freely. Life is too beautiful to keep looking over your shoulders all the time. Learn and walk the steps to let go because it is only then that life will begin for you.
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