Memoir
The journey, your journey, towards TrueLove is a mission in which you are both the emissary and the dispatcher.
You have implanted within your human personality a yearning that would relentlessly push you to realize that there is something bigger in life than your daily routine; that there is a world beyond the reality that your senses perceive, one which you must go out and look for; that there is TrueLove and it is the awakening signal that you have requested in advance.
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The search that you conduct after TrueLove, after this ONE that lives somewhere ‘out there’ and who, one day, will festively march into your life has so far been focused in the wrong place. TrueLove outside of you is an illusion and your real goal must be the inner search; the search for a part of you that eons ago was left behind in your homeworld, beyond the wall of fire.
Your prince-charming or your lady of dreams whom you patiently wait for, are actually a reflection of that greater royal fraction of yours that so far has been dormant in a faraway place. One of the best ways to awaken that component and to summon it into your daily life is through the impulse that you have been feeling to seek for your TrueLove. (If you haven't read yet the trilogy of the story of the princes , you should).
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You now realize that any disregard of that call would be your undoing.
As long as you continue to ignore that urge to have a wonderful romantic relationship, the thrust to study the art of human relationships, the timely calling to let go of casual and futile sexual flings, you keep declaring that you give up on that soul part of yours who wishes to reunite with you. As long as you continue to compromise on your feelings, continue to marry people who you almost love, live with people you almost feel comfortable with, you keep surviving in the world outside the cave, battling with yourselves, with fragments of yourselves, while looking in vain for the way to go back home. In that world, there is no magic whistle that would take you home. You must get into the cave; you must begin the inner journey to reunite with the kingdom.
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You are free to combat as much as you like; you are welcome to get wounded, to suffer pain, to be rescued, but one day you will wake up and like Karnol and Nasi you will realize that there is another way.
Then you will look for the cave, for the gate to the kingdom of your Realization. Like Karnol, you will need much courage, great will-power and blazing belief in your path. And even then the difficulties would not be over. Living in the cave, in the day-to-day reality, will coerce you to adopt new lifestyles, to accept things you may not like, to consciously be alert of the duality’s pitfalls. You will need to breathe a lot and deeply, to celebrate each moment and to hope that one day the soft voice will appear to guide you towards the golden cave;
And I am telling you that if you persist on your way that voice will most definitely and most surely will come!
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The bottom line can be simply summarized in one sentence – prior to the creation of a loving and deeply emotional relationship that would cross physical and psychic boundaries, one must allow the reconnection with one’s yet absent selfhood.
That missing part is constantly present in our life but we usually are not aware of it. It is neither the sub-conscious nor what some would call “guardian angels”. The selfhood, your selfhood, is multidimensional and always wants to express all its facets in the realities it occupies. We, as humanity, have so far been satisfied with the rational part of the self and gave that part the control over our life. Nevertheless, the process of evolution demands now that we leap forward.
When we meet an extraordinary person and fall in love with them we actually encounter a small fragment of our dormant selfhood which expressed itself through that person and materialized itself through the event of infatuation. As long as we don’t embark upon the search after the whole unit that had sent that fragment; as long as we project our happiness on that small shred, we will experience disappointment. For that shred is just a reminder, it is not the “real thing”, and the nature of a reminder is to disappear unless a deliberate effort is taken to follow its source.
A genuine and complete TrueLove cannot be realized in any one’s life as long as one avoids creating a stable loving relationship with oneself. I am not speaking about the superficial affirmations like – “you must love yourself before anything else” or “* self-love precedes brotherhood*” – but rather I refer to something more substantial, which stands beyond the rational mind.
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Your best friend
This part that I am talking about will only intensify its presence in your life in the days to come. It will remain with you forever, and you will feel it. You already do to some extent – as a gentle, hovering, loving and soothing essence. Nothing in your life will seem coincidental anymore and the extraordinary events will signal that you are on the right track.
The influence of that part from the ancient kingdom that you now bring into your personal reality will be felt in every field of your life. Do you lack money? No more. You didn’t have a direction in life? You now have. You had legal problems or health issues? Everything will find its proper balance, at a pace that will match your needs and circumstances.
Your TrueLove is your most loyal friend, as Nasi has been to Karnol. That friend best understands you and guides when necessary. That friend observes you from aside, allows you to experience anything that you choose, alerts when danger is probable and celebrates with you the moments of joy; those will indeed grow in quantity and quality from now on.