The dream
Last night I had a surreal dream.
It started with my mother waiting for me to get organized so that we could go somewhere and while she waited, she would not stop crying, this is the second time this week that I've been dreaming about my mother crying. There is a complex relationship between us, the communication between us is not stable, we are currently disconnected from the beginning of the year.
Later in the dream I was in a place with many more people, we had to dance in circles but all the time the hands broke up between people and we were unable to keep a circle between us. Suddenly the picture changed and I found myself waking up in a pond with green water, looking down and realizing that the water was crawling with snakes, I was frightened and afraid they would bite me, but they swam around me and did not hurt me. An old man sat in front of me and looked at me and I thought why he did not wake me up to prevent me from sleeping in a pool full of snakes?
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I got out of the pool and found that I was alone in an apartment of someone who was not there and I had no idea who he was. The flat was messy, and its front door was on the ground floor in the middle of the street, like a store entrance. The door was broken and not properly closed, it was night and the street outside was desolate, I was afraid to leave and I decided to stay there until morning.
Suddenly a guy came and wanted to hand me an invitation or someone's business card. I was scared of him and I shouted that if he did not go I would call the police. Suddenly I saw that I was without a top, half naked. He looked at me strangely and left. I looked out the door and saw that he was walking toward a group of men standing there in the middle of the street.
I realized that it was not safe there and that I had to leave as soon as possible. I went into the bathroom to get dressed, and when I turned around, two men stood there. They would look tough and scary and one of them was a little full, he held a cudgel in his hand. He put it to my shoulder and pushed me to the floor, without speaking, they just smiled. I tried to beg them to leave me but suddenly I did not hear a sound, I knew the other guy was going to rape me and I thought I could not believe it was happening to me. I lay there and did not fight him, I knew there'd be no point to. He lay down on me and then - I woke up in a panic!
My Interpretation
In the absence of a lot of personal information about you and especially about the circumstances of your life, my interpretation will be general and you will have to discern what fits your life -
The crying of your mother is your cry for yourself. You feel sorry for the disconnection from your mother and cry in pain over the situation, especially because you know you have the ability to fix the situation.
The snakes pool is the pool of wisdom, a reservoir of knowledge and insight that exists in you from which you can draw strength. The ego is afraid of that knowledge because it mistakenly thinks that once your self expands it will lead to its extinction. The old man is the smart part of you that looks on your life from the side, allowing you to have valuable experience (a kind of spiritual guide).
The "almost rape" situation at home represents your belief system about men and your relationships. That does not mean you think all men are aggressive, threatening and potential rapists, but one part of you definitely feels that way and created the dream scene you described. Try to clarify these beliefs and bring them up in order to release them.
Ok thank you very much for the interpretation. I have a question about what you wrote:
- Over the past few days, I have been thinking about the dream, especially when I have written it. Here's my interpretation, tell me what you think:
I've been suffering from some addiction for the past three years. Recently, I have been constantly thinking about my desire to quit but can not bring myself to do anything. I think perhaps the men who threatened me and the fact that I felt that I was in danger are parallel to my feeling that I had to get out of my addiction situation. I am not in a life-threatening situation or anything like that, but my life certainly revolves around the addiction. And this is a big limitation. Perhaps the fact that I woke up just before I was raped, just before something bad happened to me, shows me that I have hope. Or maybe that's what I want to believe in. In any case, it's a bit hard for me to connect the snakes' pool, perhaps from what you wrote it indicates that I have the ability to do so. What do you think? I will be happy to hear.
The expansion you wrote definitely adds to the dream -
The house where you find yourself in is a reflection of your state of mind: messy, open to the street. You feel exposed as if you are clay to be used by anyone, open to anyone who can do with you as they please. The dream reflects this very clearly!
Notice that a recurring theme in your dream is your helplessness: at first, you resent the fact that the old man in the pool did not help you to deal with the snakes or did not warn you. Then you realize you're going to be raped and you don't reject or rebel against that option. Rather you are waiting, as if you can not be saved, to change your private reality.
And this connects to what you wrote that you can not bring yourself to act on your addiction. You have made a wonderful link to your emotional state because of the addiction. Your addiction, in reality, creates a state of parasitic feeding in the dream world which is reflected in the almost rape scene.
The snakes' pool is the spring and the source of the wisdom that is in you. The dream says that the forces are within you and you have to use them. No one can do it for you, but once you start, help will come.
Hope? Definitely! There is always hope, for any human being. And it's up to you. It begins with your inner belief that you are capable of receiving help. In order to get rid of the addiction, you need very strong self-discipline, every day, but the hardest, most difficult step is making your initial decision. Choose to quit. That's the hardest part!