I become what the city fears it has become dawned on me to do the needful and carry this city, the nigh ton my back. I become batman, naaa, im just joking at midnight, Midnight has always felt different to me. It is peaceful it should be peaceful and full of bliss but unfortunately thats when evil people also scheme, in the cover of night. Not to get sidetracked about the prompt. Midnight just strips all of the noise away and i see a different side to me, away from everything the day time brings. It leaves you alone with yourself.
The truth is, who I become at midnight really depends on what the day gave me. Some nights, I am exhausted before my head even touches the pillow. Those are the nights where midnight means nothing more than sleep. No deep thoughts, nothing. But on most nights, it could be different in the sense that my mind opens up at night, especially if i get an afternoon or evening nap, like today. It is strange because ideas that refuse to form properly during the day suddenly become clear at night. Drafts become easier to write and im more creative. It feels like my mind opens up once the noise of the world quiets down. Maybe that is why I sometimes intentionally leave important decisions until midnight.
I like thinking during the midnight, during the day, emotions can be loud and draining. A lot of my prayers happen at midnight too, not the rushed kind said out of routine, but the sincere ones. The kind where you actually think carefully about your life, your hopes and aspirations, the things you are asking God for. Midnight prayers feel heavier in a good way. Its like you are closer to the Most High.
And oddly enough, I become softer at midnight. I try not to sleep with anger in my heart if I can help it. It does not always work perfectly, but I try. Someone who annoyed me earlier in the day suddenly seems more understandable at midnight. Sometimes I even find myself replaying conversations and realizing maybe I was harsher than I needed to be. Midnight humbles the ego a little.
I think that is the version of myself I like most. I like to think of it as the most honest version of myself
Entry time 12:04 Am WAT