I LOVE to fall in love. It’s just how I am.
That feeling when you just want to devour every single little part of them in each ticking moment.
The rapture, the bliss, the excitement of their every word, movement, gaze.
But I have realized that what I most often fell in love with was their Potential, and not their reality.
I see the best in people, I always have (thanks to my eternally-optimistic mother). I saw the good side when others just saw an ‘asshole narcissist’. But wrong choices (no regret there) and many years of self-reflection & observation have taught me differently.
I still see the good in others, but I realize now that there is a HUGE difference in somebody’s possible potential and actually embodying that potential.
It’s like having great intentions (as we all do), but no follow-up actions. Sorry dude, sweet words with no integrity no longer impress this girl.
So before I choose to truly invest my energy, time & heart...
You are going to have to prove you are worth it.