Alright, as my last post explained, I'm gonna be making an effort to put out more personal content for the sake of expression, artistic gratification, and just plain fun.
To get the ball rolling, I'm gonna start things off on a bit of a darker note with a poem that I wrote nine years ago. I wrote and recited it at my little sister's funeral. They're the last words I spoke publicly in my home town before leaving forever.
Displayed in a case like a porcelain doll
We all know inside, it’s not you at all.
I couldn’t stop the instrument of fate’s infernal plot
But at your grave, I promise you, you’ll never be forgot.
As certain seeds that fall sprout only after fire,
This forest will be greener soon and grow forever higher.
Forgive us for our failure and for our many flaws.
We stand now here in mourning of your life that never was.
I really didn't have much to say at the time but I was asked to contribute so I reluctantly pecked this out and recited it as part of the eulogy. Otherwise, I was pretty quiet. One of my brothers had shot her in the head (by accident, I trust) and everyone had decided to treat him as a victim, bemoaning the turmoil he must've been going through. Being a fairly christian community, all kinds of mind-bending pseudo-explanations and platitudes were tossed around and it was all I could do to keep a straight face throughout the event. I overheard that my brother supposedly wasn't to blame for what he did because everything happens according to God's will. Funny how, in an effort to console someone, they claim their perfect god to be a shameless serial killer... Anyway, I decided against arguing with people or otherwise making any kind of scene. I wrote pretty much everyone in the room off as unworthy of my time or attention and before long, I had left that town for the last time. Good riddance to deluded lunatics. If the open casket before them all wasn't enough to snap them out of their fantasies then I can't imagine what would be. Fortunately, I've never had to endure people like that in all the years since. Growing up is kinda awesome like that.