Talk about centering your happiness around someone you have never met before , That’s exactly what I did, but then it felt so good almost as if God sent him at my lowest times, times I had already gotten used to..Where all I had was just myself and my Job…yes i gave up like that.
I never would have replied a Facebook message from a stranger, lol…but you can never tell when your instincts push you to attempt something you never do. It was six days to my birthday when he said hi to me and at first I was reluctant to reply of course I had done my checks on his profile page and it was not a face i was familiar with, I was under the weather and maybe I felt I needed a distraction.
Richard kept chatting me up, I gave him my phone number on his request after some days and we started talking more, gradually we became friends. I felt comfortable around him, got used to his calls and BBM chats, he was real sweet to me, You see I have never had it good with men , may be not lucky if you ask me .(story for another day) but Richard was good to me,giving me his attention even with his very busy schedule, and the distance between both of us, but it felt real.
we talked about everything, yes every darn thing you can imagine a Man and a Woman would ever talk about except for marriage lol.
I slowly let loose and decided to enjoy happiness. It was that bad if my phone beeped with a message I hoped it was him, if it rang it had better be him lol…We had our fair share of quarrels and yes every one quarrels it was somewhat inevitable if you ask me.
Here comes the twist…
I had met Richard when I was younger, some eight years ago and I was something else then but Richard was nice to me then …let me explain…
Eight or nine years ago, Richard and I met on a social media platform, and we decided to meet up , we were in different schools, so I made a trip to visit him at his school which was not exactly far from mine, When I met him I was indifferent.
He tried doing everything to make me comfortable but I just brought up the attitude of ten mean girls all at once on the poor dude. The next day I left him and made him pay my transport fare to my destination (0h well…childish stuff if you ask me)dude did not even attempt to as much as kiss me oh..i just came with my “weyrey” and left with my wahala lol, I guess he was wondering what was up with me.
He even made attempts to buy me dinner and i rejected.
Reality…
Richard somewhat guessed I was the girl from way back because somehow I kept bothering him about why he chose to chat me up and one gist led to another gist and that’s how I told him about the guy I snobbed way back , he kept the knowledge away from me for sometime, eventually he opened up to me and honestly I was shaken…I felt karma had finally found me, I didn’t even realize or recognize that my Richard was the boy I spoke so snobbishly too back then…He looked different, sounded more matured and very thoughtful.
He was willingly to let go of the past and forge ahead with our relationship, I was confused at some point, I needed clarity but Richard was not patient enough to explain,all he wanted to do was move on . This is the part that I believe that Men and Women think very differently. He asked me if I was willingly to move on and let the past go but I just needed to understand and clear up some details we had spoken about earlier on before he revealed to me what he knew.
Little did I know ,that was going too cost me sleepless nights, worrrying days, tearful moments and a fresh broken heart to deal with.
Richard and I spoke and after some hours I called him back as I usually would do and he didn’t pick up , I thought he went to play Basket ball as that was his hobby , I gave him some hours and called back yet he did not pick his calls, sent him messages no reply ..chatted him up, messges delivered and he read them but no reply still..It has been three days now he has not replied my calls, chats or sms.
I fell in love with a stranger I never had a chance to meet but I knew him, I am so heart broken. I am here wondering, worrying about what my Stranger was thinking or what was making him act in this manner,
Richard promised to make me happy, yet here I am sad and all alone. He said he had fallen for me and he had feelings and yet …………
He made me see reasons that some men actually live to make women happy and yet he took off leaving me all sad, worried and guessing.
Sadly, this has happened to me before, I took a while to heal but i eventually did heal.
For what it is worth I was happy for some months.