Silence and waiting are one part of the struggle. Wait . That's what I always do right now. A feeling that somehow I want to do it despite being sick. I know the reality I have to accept that you will not always be by my side, you will not always care about me, even you ignore me. With your attitude that's why I'm still fighting for you? Do not ask me about it, I myself do not know why I'm still fighting for you.
You did not give news via sms or telfon, it makes me miss. If every day long this keeps piling up, what would it be? All my longing is mine, until it ends with a little rain on the eyelids. Do you know about it? Certainly not. You do not care about me as deep as I care about you. You do not miss me as deep as I miss you. Maybe you do not love me as much as I love you. Am I stupid? Maybe. With such ignorance I do not know why I'm still fighting for "us".
Is it stupid me if I wait for you to change like before? Like when we are still doing the process approach. That's very beautiful. Is it stupid me if I still care about you, even though you very clearly ignore me? Do I fool if I still miss you, even though you never know?
Yes. I deserve to be a fool. If there is a stupidity I'm grateful for, it's my foolish love.
Where are you when I want it here? Where are you when I'm fighting for the person I'm hoping to give me happy? Often I forgive your mistakes, I often forgive your absence, I still show my best smile to you even though I really want to cry.
I'm getting tired. Tired of waiting for you, tired of defending you. Can you start looking at my struggle and ignore it all? Can you see my concern? Just once. In order for me to get the light of hope to continue to wait and fight for you. It's all my struggle to defend you, to defend "us", is that not enough to dispel your insensitivity, your indifference? Until I begin to be at the point of saturation fighting for you, you still ignore it, is it proper that you still struggle
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