**My wife did a biopsy a couple of months ago, and they found some worrying changes in the cells - which was serious enough to do a small surgery where they take out a bite and examine it. **
Just now they called her and told her she was completely fine. MAN have we been tested. When she first told me I started imagining cancer, hospital visits, and her slowly dying from cancer. It's been such a struggle to keep these thoughts out, and at the same time my mother IS actually dying from heart failure. That's hard enough to go through. But I am so happy about my strength right now. Just tree years ago I had panic attacks for literally nothing. Through these few weeks of emotional hardship (especially for her) I've been a rock.
Unlike before when I couldn't show any feelings, or had no control over my feelings (which I suspect was one of the reasons for my panic attacks ((my body trying to air out emotions)), I'm now able to talk about them and even cry and sob without feeling like complete unmanly loser.
And what strength she has shown through this. She's working on a huge deal with her business - and at the same time going through this.
What a summer this is going to be!
"Odin helps he who helps himself."