Chains that clothe a fear that remained hidden... a fear that exploded with anger and crying.
It's been about 4 years since I played one of the strongest characters I've had as an actor... after that, It was just me and my things (not to say crazy).
It all started with a call from the producer of the play "Carne" which gave me the opportunity to participate as an actor. After that came the rehearsals where I was immersed in a sea of anxieties, stress and worries. Almost every day I was crying... I could not get the character that the director wanted and therefore, it was like an arrow that I was throwing myself because I felt I was not capable enough to interpret it. Many conversations alone with the director made me understand the real flaw I had... and that flaw was to live; I needed to live more, feel more. I was barely, or still am, a boy of about 20 years who needed to live more, experience more, know more. I lacked resources to be able to play a character whose life was not normal... the character is called Ed Gein, he was a sexual psychopath in real life, a serial murderer and a necrophiliac. When they presented me with the opportunity to interpret a character of this size, I could not say no, however, afterwards I had to stop with that headache...
This is me playing.
I do not know the source of the image, it was 4 years ago, sorry.
I have always thought that thanks to him I opened my eyes in many aspects. Each person will have his time to open them, maybe it came to me in a very abrupt way, because, I visited a hospital 3 times thanks to the stress caused and my little addiction to the cigar.
I accepted and fought against all the problems he caused me. This did not stop my need to express myself as an artist, so I decided to turn the issue around and photograph my colleagues on stage.
It was important for me to make this clarification before showing you these photos; I wanted to share the real story behind them:
A character who confronted me and told me how good I can be if I set my mind... a character that marked a moment in my life and I will never forget... a moment that made me open my eyes... taught me to listen to my body... to never give up.
With a lot of desire for you to come back Ed... I know that you and I have a lot to work... and here I am, facing you.
He fixed his gaze on me... then stopped without saying anything... they caught him, so toxic and full of life sometimes... he fell... and nobody heard him roar.
