"What's the one thing you have lost - or would be afraid to lose - which would limit (or has already limited) your personal Freedom?"~Hive account@freedomtribe

When I saw the question above many thoughts ran through my mind of all I have already lost. Yet here I am on Steem writing a post about what would I be afraid to lose. How ironic.

Does the question then become do I write about my mentally abusive first marriage? Having endometriosis so bad that there are weeks where you do not even have the freedom to leave the house? Having your life torn apart watching the person you love lose everything his family had worked for due to using hard drugs?

How about being a single Mom and working in a man's world full time with a very bad 1970's school education always proving that being a woman didn't make you weak? Here is a kicker for ya, dropping your only child off at a bus stop so he can go to a different country where he doesn't speak the language, has no money and no place to live?

Top that off with working for a company for most of your life, going into work on a Friday morning, being told the company was closing its doors in thirty minutes so pack your personal stuff and see ya! The best part about that one is the fact that my husband worked there too.

We then move on to being lied to about why a friend wanted to hire me so badly for a job at a company he helped run. I was offered the world. A world I didn't want but had to take because someone had to have a job and pay for insurance. A few months into my new job it became clear why I was hired. I was given a promotion and a whole department to call my own. My friend knew I would hate this new job. It's why he lied to my face while smiling when offering me the fake job in the first place.

The friend knew if he had offered me the real job he wanted me to do I would have declined his offer. Yes, I was that good at that job he wanted me to do. He also knew that once I was working at the company he had more control of what my job was.

At what point, when each morning bile rises in your throat knowing you have to go to a job you hate each day, do you use your freedom of free will? I lasted a month. I quit. Hubby was not happy. No joy in Mudville that day.

Let's not forget about the four back surgeries I have had, the last being a lower lumbar fusion. The second back surgery was botched by the Doctor. I had to wait six months in my bed. The Doctor could not do another surgery to try and repair what he had messed up until I was mostly healed from the last one. My bedroom is about 13 feet deep by 15 feet wide with a slanted roof.

When I was sixteen I knew the exact job I wanted when I got out of school. It took until I was in my late thirties to get my dream job through a weird twist of fate. Three years later that dream job was taken from me due to health reasons. The place did everything they could to keep my position open for a year but I was getting sicker and sicker so they had to let me go.

Let's call the above the highlight list of loss.

"What's the one thing you have lost - or would be afraid to lose - which would limit (or has already limited) your personal Freedom?"~Hive account@freedomtribe

I have lost what most people would consider 'their personal freedom' more times then I care to count. Yet each big event, smaller events too that I have not written about while devastating at its time and place in my life, took away my personal freedom, yet I survived to write this post.

Life, your life, is a chain of events that happens to you for a reason. To learn from, to grow, to become a better you if, IF, you chose the freedom you always have to make the best out of what life throws at you.

No one person, no one event, can ever rob you of the freedom to grow as a person from your past mistakes and circumstances but yourself. No one but YOU can take away the freedom you have in your mind. There are always choices in life. Not always the choices you want but there are always choices. How you deal with the freedom of free will is up to you and only you.

Never forget: Everything and I mean everything is connected.

Someday take a good long look at the big events in your life and follow your path. Think about what you learned along the way for good or bad to make you the person you are today. Do you like who you are? Do you like where you are? Connect the dots, learn all the lessons shoved in your life for you to learn from. Once you have a good grip on what your life has taught you so far take your freedom of free will and start changing what you don't like.