June 26, 2017
Yes I am one of those people that has a regular full time job with benefits. I’m not complaining or saying that it is a bad thing but I often wonder if I’m wasting my life.
The time is spend at this place is time in my life that will not be recovered. However I am trading this time for money which enables me to have a pretty decent standard of living. By no means am I making a lot of money by working, but I don’t miss any meals and always have a roof over my head and money to support my transportation.
I get paid every two weeks and have never had a problem getting my funds. That being said I have several friends that don’t have regular jobs. They can get by working part time but have family support that assists with their income.
I don’t hate my job but I also don’t hate it. (most of the time I don’t love it).
Often I wonder what I could do to earn a good living and also have the feeling that I’m doing what I WANT to do with my time.
When I think about what I would want to do all day long 40+ hours a week. The answer comes to me but the answer is not a solution.
There is NOTHING that I WANT to do for 40 plus hours a week 5 days a week every week for years and years. Even some of my favorite activities like playing in rock bands, smoking cigars, or even watching movies.
I’ve had times where work was scarce but money was plentiful. This however was unsustainable, but even during those times I still wondered what do I do with my time.
Knowing that I’m not going to live forever and being middle aged, these are still questions that run through my mind “what am I doing with my time here on earth? & how do I make my life valuable for me and humanity in general?”
For now I’m going to continue with my job, collect my pay, and keep as positive an attitude about it as I can.
I imagine that there are many people with these same thoughts and feelings.