Happy Birthday !! 🎂 So What's Next ? ▶️⏩⏭️

Hello Steemians,

Well, 26 years ago today a girl from cross-cultured parents was born. When I was little, I had these massive eyes popping out over taking my whole face looking almost cartoonish-like.It really seemed that I was made for something epic.

Growing up I was fortunate to not only just have a sand box to play in but an entire beach as I grew up in Phuket.

I still remembered the first time I could swim as I opened my eyes in the salty sea and how it stinged but I couldn't stop driving down not only because it was so beautiful but I was thriving to explore a whole new world. I wanted to be monkey when I was young. Not only because they funny and cute or because of the fact that I was born in the monkey year according to the Chinese zodiac, but they were able to climb up coconut trees and swing around from one to another whenever they wanted to. I fell in love with elephants the first time I saw one. It is not because my parents told me they are unique and claimed to be holy animals within our culture but when I looked into their eyes I see a soul, a big and kind soul.

As I got a little older, I got bored of the beaches. Sands are just grains of stone and there they are. Monkeys and elephants are cute but they don't seem special like they used to and there they are also. I wanted to leave and explore the high-rise and excitement of the cities. My parents couldn't make me stay.

Now I live in a not even 30 square meter concrete box. Trying to make the most of it in the city. I convinced myself that I was born for this and I am young so I need to live with hype.

I still remember the fist time I saw the city lights. It gave me motivations and drive to push myself not only because of the energy ambiances by each bulb but when they all lit up together it lights up the whole city and myself included. At that point, I wanted to be like those metropolitans not only because how they seemed to have everything figured in the direction they went, just look at how fast they walk but they seem to enjoy reaching their goals along with a free fun life the city offers. I started falling in love, not only because everyone else did but I started seeing something special in somebody else by just looking at them in the eyes.

As I got a little older (now). I am starting to get bored of the city. Lights are just lights and no they don't lift me up all the time, it is just there. City people are nice but not all of them are nor do many have life sort out, same as falling in love. It is great and beautiful but finding someone who fits you and keeping it is another story .... And yes, all of it are all just right there.

Happy 26th Birthday to you Suzana, I told myself....

Soooo what's next ?

Oh Life !!!!

Wherever this leads.... No matter where this life takes me, I do, I do !!!! I still believe in that "epic" part!!! ;)