You know, the same day that this photo above was taken, I had struggled with something that other people would consider minute. I had struggled with making a video of myself speaking. It was my team leads' birthday anniversary, and all the rest of us had agreed to make short videos to wish her well. I may not have agreed neither disagreed with the idea, but I had to be a part of it.
In the course of making the less-than-a-minute video that i had spent hours pouting, making, remaking, grunting, and going back and forth about it, my cousin had asked me, 'What if it was an actual gathering and you were asked to give a speech or something of sorts?' I had laughed it out, but it struck me. I wasn't in front of a multitude yet I was anxious. So anxious I made tons of videos after another. It was difficult.
Public speaking is one of the very few but chief things I know that I would hastily be challenged to. I hate to admit it, but I'm a shy, reserved person. I may be good at writing and speaking, and I may be a force out there in the football pitch, but I suck at holding conversations and speaking to a group/crowd. I'm usually the guy who does most of the work in the background, the one who's behind the camera, rarely(better put, never) in front It's just something I always struggled with from very young. It's what it is.
On one hand, I hope that someone challenged me to it so that I get to face it. On the other hand, nope, no one should, I don't know how it would be. Might not turn out well. Either way, this is one of three challenges that I am certain of
Oh, this second one, something similar to a challenge happened just this week. Long story short, I gave someone very close to me and to my family a huge amount to help me kickstart a project. I was hoping to start a fish pond(a small one, first). I already got my tanks installed, and it was left for him to make supplies of the fingerlings and feeds, and he hasn't. It was money I had saved from my job for months.
And you know what, he did not deliver on the job. It's been almost eight months, and from giving me excuses every day, he has begun to avoid me. I can't react. I couldn't. I am hurt and angry, but rather than do something or take some action, I shrug. It's not a cool way to be, but that's me. I take the less violent road always. In the midst of misunderstanding and the likes, I always am the cool one. It could never be said of me that I am rash. I hope you don't think of me as stupid at this point, but that's just it. Everyone, everywhere, knows me as the calm, peace-loving guy. It does have its effect, but I still do me. My friends are the people who would quickly challenge me to this. I'm certain.
The above two things came easily to me. Maybe cause I've been told things in that line, plus I've been on some self-reflection ride. But this third one, this isn't that easy. Okay, maybe I'll just ask someone. Give me a minute.
Hey, so I asked my baby sister. The young lady can be very blunt sometimes. You know what, she thinks I should learn to be a little organized, like keep my space together. She thinks I should turn over a new leaf from being scattered. I don't want to agree that I am not, but I can't deny that she's saying the truth. I work a job with shifts, and my things are mostly over the place. So yeah, I should keep my gadgets somewhere safe when not in use, clean the kitchen when I'm done, put my clothes in the wardrobe, and arrange my room. It's funny yet sad, but this could be difficult for me. Not in the start, but I could just lose momentum and glide back to old ways. Lol.
I think I'm done here. Those are the three areas that I'm quite certain someone would challenge me to work on, on myself. These three in particular. I'm starting to think that this particular topic is aimed at helping us(me) figure areas of our(life) that needs adjustment. I guess that's what i would strive to do for me....adjust and improve.
And that's it for my participation in the Weekend Engagement Week #232 topic.
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