Life is a seed and no matter how hard we try sometimes to find balance, life will happen. One never get use to losing a loved one no matter the years counting, I was planning for the 10th year anniversary of my younger brother only to lose another brother on the 30th of same month.
It's been a struggle getting over his death as we never really talked much we has our chats but we always felt there was time we could always catch up anytime.
I came into this year with high hopes for my relationship and family. Firstly the relationship I had to walk away from because of my mental health, when a ship isn't functioning properly you go off board. A relationship isn't a one person thing. It's involves both parties and you both put in the work. I can't be there for you and you can't meet me half way. So I was getting over this and then the news of my brother passing came just like that someone my parents spoke with the very faithful day. I was heart broken💔 devastated and as well as my parents. It wasn't an easy news to take in, I for one didn't believe until I saw him lifeless on the hospital bed.
He had passed the day before and they could only come to inform us the day after, there was any family around him during his last minute on earth no loved one to hug him or pray with him.
Life hasn't really been fair with me and my family the hurt of death isn't something one should experience over and over again not to talk of some friend that aren't sensitive while sharing their broadcast when there's no response from someone you send something to you reach out and check on that person at least that's what I would do, if I didn't take note of their display picture. In all I hold no grudge but I felt hurt by some actions from those I hold dearly and reactions.
But life does have to go on, should other people's life go on hold because mind isn't all I hoped for it to be?
Coming to give this evening I noticed a lot of new communities and development around the platform so this also shows me the journey continues.
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I have told myself I won't get bitter over my pains or lost and I keep asking God to heal and help me.
And that He forgives me if I bragged too much about havingone of the best year's in 2025 maybe that's why this year started with all this hurts and pains I can't understand 😥😥ðŸ˜. No one deserves to die alone no matter how the person is everyone deserves to have family and loved ones around them.
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So am pouring my heart out here and also praying that, the rest of 2026 turns out beautiful for my family and myself and that we do get some joy down the years no more sorrow or heart aches it will be too much for my parents, myself and my other siblings.