I've never taken ativan and i only just have experienced any sort of spiritual gatherings. What i have hit walls with is positivity blocking anger and demands fir change. I know why people do it but it stops me dead in my tracks because there is no way for me to be positivd about some things. I try to be patient but it never works. I know its largely due to my panic response. When i feel a situation is impossible or threatening or both my body treats it as if i might die. Loud noises, smells , arguments about feminism racism and or classism... all feel like a terrorist attack.