Despite only being 18 years old I have dealt with many experiences and conflicts throughout my childhood. As a result of being a professional stoner during most of my high school career, my sense of responsibility, dignity, pride, and "giving a fuck" kind of went out the window. There were many incidents that occured in my early childhood that lead to depression and lack of self-respect. It has taken me a while to come to terms with all of this and change the road I was on. However, I am so so thankful it happened. That I can now see the importance of not letting the opportunities I have been given go to waste. I now feel as though I can take control of my life and my future and not just coast by and go through the motions, distracted by drugs. A lot of things has happened to bring me to this point of understanding, however, I believe that my lsd trip was the climax, the point at which everything came into view, and I unplugged myself from my own matrix that I built with bongs and alcohol.
My first and most likely my last time taking lsd changed my life and if you are lost in life, wheather it be spiritually, emotionally, or you just feel as though you have lost control of your future. Or don't know what the hell your doing right now or why your going to this school or why are you hanging out with these people. the answers will be given to you on a lsd trip wheather you want them or not. That is the beauty of it, you realize what you need to know in order to grow from the experience. I will summarize what my lsd trip for me and how you can have a safe one that gets you thinking about, well everything!
My trip started at around 3 in the afternoon. My initial idea was to just hang out at someone's house or something but of course my bozo friends wanted to go out and do stuff. Now keep in mind this was my first time doing acid and i had 2 tabs, so 200ug. My one friend was a sitter/driver and my other friend did 2 tabs as well. So I suggested we go to the beach and walk along the pier. On the way there I'm sitting in the back of a convertible a look at these tree trunks and it looks like someone put a paintbrush in them and was smearing all the colors around. At this I jury felt great and everything ago be me seemed good. Now after we left the pier me and my friends did something we did a lot when we were high which was sit in the car and just trip out basically. We usually don't talk that much when we do this however sometimes we do. My one friend was talking nonsense the whole time about "living young and free" which I thought was funny but then my thoughts just started going wild and this is where things got bad, but in a good way.
So I was just sitting thinking about how for the past 2 years we have just got high and created this false sense of security I guess you could call it. Basically a matrix, where the future didn't matter, everything was gonna be alright, etc. modern culture loves this philosophy but what I realized is that eventually you have to snap out of it, and luckily I did. Instead of just coasting along going through the motions. Going to this college because whatever and taking these classes because whatever. I decided that I needed to get my life back in track, focus on what's important, which is school so I don't have to work a crap job my whole life, and take advantage of the opportunity I have been given despite all my mistakes. Now I'm going to a good 4 year and I'm mentally prepared for it. If I never had that acid trip I honestly think I would have ended up dropping out in the first semester.
I'm not a doctor, I'm not giving medical advice, and I don't condone the use of illegal substances but what I will say is that I'm glad I did it because I can't even smoke weed anymore without feeling like a piece of shit lol. I believe that if you thinking about trying acid, do it when you feel lost in life and you need to see the truth. Make sure you are comfortable but not too comfortable so that you can see things for what they really are and assess how you live your life. Thank you for reading this I hope I have helped you understand what it is like to take acid and how it can be used to wake yourself up and "see" what you have been blind to.
