Welcome to my mind

It is no secret that I suffer schizophrenia, I have shared this before and have been criticised for it. I will continue to share it as I am not ashamed of my disorder.

Recently I have been having a rough time figuring out what is real and what is not. Some thoughts are not my own and things that I thought happened but didn't and things that did happen that I don't remember. I usually am well maintained on medication, but with my current health issue, I have neglected my mental health.

The problem arises when medication runs out. Since I have had this pain in my side/flank, I have spent all my liquid assets on doctors that tell me there is nothing wrong with me.

As usual people with my condition don't think there is anything wrong, I am only alerted to this by my wife who asked if I was freaking out on her. She has dealt with this before, and I thank her with all my heart for putting up with me.

I am putting this post out to see about raising money for a visit to my psychologist to refill my much-needed medications. Copay is generally around $50USD; my medications generally run $20USD.

One way or another I will be going, it just may have to wait until my next pay period as I am on a fixed income and work has been hit or miss recently.

Thanks for being an outlet for me to spew my thoughts.

Related, but not.

Image from FX

If you don't know how schizophrenia affects people, I highly recommend you watch the show "Legion" on FX. It is a Marvel hero that suffers from it, and that show does an incredibly good job showing what some people go through with this. Watch it and bare with it, it is confusing, disorienting, and quite surreal. This was done on purpose, but if you watch it till the end of the season, it does make sense, well as much sense as it could.

Thanks,
Michael Garcia a.k.a. @TheCrazyGM