And thats how you get to know someone. If you consider joining a group may I recommend to stay away from any mercenaries trying to recruit you? An experienced veteran like yourself is hot target for them. I hear somethings brewing.
(On a serious note: I try to add a bit of Batman in the mix but I think you came to the right place regarding your ptsd and night terrors. You can write it off of you in here and if you hit the discord channels you'll find someone to cheer up yoir day.)
RE: I AM BATMAN....RETURNED!