It's Fathers Day in Australia and many Dad's are having a great time with their kids (myself included).
Unfortunately under the smiles and new socks many men are struggling with depression (myself included). Around 17% of Australian Men suffer depression and most suffer in silence.
One thing I have found from my own personal experience is that having a little one who squeals "Daddy!" in excitement when you come home, is one of the best feelings ever. I can't help but smile every time I watch my little girl innocently interact with the world. She is blissfully unaware that her Dad has a mental illness that is sometimes so crippling he can't get out of bed.
I have lived through two suicide attempts and the last one came about after my own Dad passed away. I felt so lonely and helpless without him that I decided I could no longer live in this world. It has been about 8 years since that time and I have come a long way from those very dark days.
Watching my 2yo daughter grow from a tiny baby into a little person has shown me how great life can actually be. Whilst I still live with depression, I feel like I have more purpose in the world. I just hope I can be as good a Dad as mine was.
To all the other Dad's out there struggling with depression, please know that you're not alone and there is always some light at the end of the tunnel. I would also urge you to find someone you trust to talk to (I know it's not easy, but it does help).
Happy Fathers Day!