I am not a user of big words, I don't feel the need to dress my stories or opinions up. I speak from my heart, from my own experiences and I am well aware, that there is much I still don't know.
I follow my gut on most things and if something doesn't feel good, then I don't do it. There are often times, when I sit with things to see if my opinion or feelings will in fact change. But first impressions mean a lot to me.
But like everyone else, my ego sometimes rares its head and I need to take some time to reel myself back in.
I am human afterall.
There is a part of me, that struggles to listen to people who try to tell me that they know, how certain things work in life for everyone, as though life itself is set in stone, as if everything is understood.
That we have to accept the way in which they think, or the people who they believe, think. There are so many theories flying around, so many explanations. Which could be true for some, but for all? That's quite a huge leap of faith for me.
Yes, we are so similar in ways, but we are also so different in others. Each one of us an individual, reacting to life in different ways and yet we are meant to believe that we all experience certain things the same way.
Maybe we do, maybe we don't. Life is full of mysteries. I personally don't feel the need to understand them, for me it is important to just embrace them.
Otherwise we can get caught up in the quest to know and miss out on actually living. In having real life experiences, making real connections. There is a big difference, between theory and practice.
I want to feel things, more than understand them.
To act from my heart and not always be so in my head, trying to intellectualise everything. I guess we have schools to thank for this desire to know everything, believing we need to understand everything, in order to be enlightened.
But to me, feeling is more important. For me, the truth of who I am, is something I need to feel. Not necessarily understand. But we are all different and this is what feels right for me, I'm not here to tell anyone what they should feel or what they should do. That's not my way. That is their journey to live.
But then again, what do I know?
