Ever since i was a little kid, I didn't want to be me. I wanted to be like Amanda and Amanda didn't even like me. I walked like she walked, talked like she talked and signed up for the high school she signed up for. After a while i noticed that Amanda started to hangout with Valentino. She talked like Valentino. I too began to talk and walk like Amanda who was walking and talking like Valentino.
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And then it dawned on me that Valentino walked and talked like Riches and Riches walked and talked like Mary. So here i am walking and talking like Amanda's imitation of Valentino's version of Riches trying to walk and talk like Mary.
And who do you think Mary is always walking and talking like? Of all people, Miriam that little "pest" who walks and talks like me!.
The message is that at the end of the day, the people I was envying and desiring to be like also desired secretly to be like me.
"what lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters of what lies within us" -Emerson
Since nobody is 100% perfect and 100% complete. That means that those you envy may actually want to be like you in one way or the other. Stop devaluing yourself.
Myles Monroe said "all men are sent to the world with limitless credit, but seldom draw to their full extent. There are many selves within you that lie dormant untapped and unused."
Life is like a 10-speed bike, most of us have gears we never use till the grave.
Never pity yourself,
never underestimate your value,
never wish you were someone else!
Love yourself
This is the greatest.