❝Sometimes it's easier to smile than to explain why you're sad.❞
-Rafael Gutiérrez-
Everything can change in the blink of an eye; humans can do really silly things. Getting upset over nonsense, ending relationships just because of justified silence or a word someone else said that you didn't react to. Anyway, I'm sad today...
The phrase at the beginning might be good to apply if you have to go out and interact with the world, but at home I live my sadness, I let it flow. It's already 11:11 AM here and I haven't even felt like having breakfast, not even because my brother gave me some delicious chocolate powder last night, not even for that, I haven't felt like making the almost irresistible hot chocolate.
Today, music has kept me company. It was the first refuge I turned to, songs from years ago that at times have made me feel identified, maybe just a phrase, the title, a character...
A feeling of having done things right but knowing that they can always be done better another time, or differently, or simply programming myself to feel them differently, to see them in another way, so that they don't affect me so much.
Today is and will surely be a Saturday filled with music. In the afternoon, I'm going to go out and buy some diapers for my mother. I have to do that at a small shopping center. Maybe I'll take advantage of the opportunity and go to a café for a while, or if I get hungry, I'll eat something there. We'll see. My mood may change a bit between now and a few hours from now.
Thank you for accompanying me. I wish you good health, a dignified life.