I have been a Steemian for about six months now, and I am really glad that I joined. It has been six very inspiring months, reading posts almost every day.
One thing that I have noticed is that a very big percentage of the posts are happy posts, peolpe are blogging about their travels, how much money they can make and so on.... Everybody seems to be living happy lives, making a lot of money and everything is so positive.....
...And then, sometimes reality strikes back... Just like it just did for me...
My wife and I are getting a divorce... I really thought that this would NEVER happen to me!!
We have been married for 8 years now, and we have a fantastic son aged 6! The last year in our marriage thing just got worse and worse, it was very difficult for us to agree on anything, and about 5 months ago I decided that we needed some time apart, just to figure things out. At this point I was pretty sure that this would do the trick for us, that our love for each other was so strong that this would fix us... So I got myself an apartment, and moved out.
That was my first mistake!
During the last year, and especially during the months we were apart I have been working my ass off...just to make money to support two households, trying to make sure that the time apart wouldn't chrash our financial situation... I completely forgot to take the time to think, take the time to try and work out our issues.
In the beginning, my wife called me daily, begging me to come back...but I was so focused on the fact that I truely believed that this was the right thing for us to do...
That was my second big mistake!!
I didn't take the time to listen to what my wife was trying to tell me..And time just passed..
I see my son every second weekend, he comes to my place... Now he seems allright with the fact that I have moved out, but it has been very hard for him...he simply just doesn't understand what is going on...
Both my wife and I have been very focused on making this as easy for our son as possible, trying to affect him as little as possible...This is a very difficult task!
Like I mentioned earlier, time just passed, and instead of making us better, it just took us further away from each other.. It was a big mistake to think that time would heal everything... So recently we filed for divorce...
It has been very hard for me to realize that she is gone, and what we had together is gone...my perfect family is gone...and where does that leave me?
Even though spring is blooming, and the sun is shining outside my windows right now, every day seems like a rainy day for me...I'm really hurting, and I'm trying my best to get my act together...It's very tough!
Saying these words to myself everyday...
Please give me the peace to accept the things I cannot change, the strength to change the things that I can, and the wisdom to see the difference..
Of course this is just a fraction of what has really happened in my life the last year or so... Just writing this post to remind you, fellow Steemians to work hard for your love...Don't make the mistake of thinking that you can solve the problems with your partner by moving away...Give it all you got, and STAY with him/her for as long time as possible...
Problems aren't solved at a distance... You need to fight TOGETHER!
I know that there is light at the end of the tunnel, and I know that I'm going to get there in time...but still..It's very hard!
The sun always shine over the clouds!