When I started writing six years ago 2012. I imagined that it would be easy – I know how to write. I know how to put words one after another. Shit, it's easy as pissing on your own two fingers.
But now, after writing six years. Imagine – writing six years, I must have made about 1000 posts or more. Some of them got deleted, some of them stored. To some I've lost access. Nevermind this.
So, the first thing I realized that writing online is easy, you don't need to buy pencil and a paper... you just plug your device to the web and write on a blog, or medium, or steemit, or anywhere, even facebook and twitter.
What hard is though, being seen – the web is overwhelmed with content. People don't have the time to consume everything. Writing is very competitive.
The second thing I noticed. Is that – the web has demand not for any piece of text, but for something learnable. If you're writing about the sky and the sun and the clouds – nobody's going to read your stuff. Nobody wants to read about you and how you're doing. Nobody wants to read your diary, your journal, your secret unless you bleed on a fucking page.
Everything is about the How To's. So I realized that people online don't read. People scan, if people want to read – they'll buy the next big hit on the market. People don't read fiction online, people don't read poetry online, if you're aren't lucky to go viral. Wherever I write people don't read my stuff – I guess it's just that bad.
Internet is not the place to write philosophy, your thoughts, your experiences in life. I know it sounds like I'm complaining, but I'm not. I'm just saying, because over the six years I became a good writer – I know this, even though I don't have the audience.
As long as you write – you can't be a failed writer. History shows us that many writers, who have been writing were recognized only after their death, some weren't recognized at all.
Sometimes I feel like I'm shouting into the void.
I really don't want to pursue trends and follow passions of other people. I want to write my way and do my stuff, which I was meant to do – I guess.
Funny thing, that some people go out there and achieve what I want to achieve so easy and yet – I'm here struggling, complaining about how hard it is, but in fact. I know that a lot of writers struggle to get noticed. It doesn't matter what you're writing, but I know that writer Charles Bukowski was struggling for many years. This is the price of being a writer you got to pay. Years and years of writing which gets barely noticed.
Today with the web – everyone is a writer, but not all writers are good and not all books are worth millions.
I know I won't quit writing, because I wake up during the night to write some piece of shit. And you know, when you're writing and nobody reads it – you start asking yourself – maybe I write shit? Maybe I write shit and that's why people aren't reading my stuff.
I know for a fact that I won't get a dime from my writing until I'm dead. Sorry for being so pessimistic, but this is the true. If you didn't achieve anything in 3 years, you probably won't achieve anything even after 40 years.
As I said before, it's not what you write – it's who writes it.