Today i will change my life and yours also hopefully! Read my honest blog how i did fail in steemit and started to see the bigger picture afterwards.

I had this writing block so many years that i just couldn't write in english. I had so many spelling mistakes and i always was afraid of somebody start to teach me, i did not want to learn so i put my head under the sand.

This was wrong. I started to write in my own language, im from Estonia. I wrote so many good articles and was helping people with self-esteem, but could not help myself. I even published a book.

But now, i am expressing so much joy because i started to write in english, full time. Without hesitating and fearing i dunno what pseudo things.

I write pretty ok, people will understand me and i can think in english on my own way also. So this open so big new door for me, so i can start writing articles in english.

I will start blogging honestly and all that i have learned by hard way, all this experiences will be published here in my channel that i use here, so follow me up if you are interested. I already have 200 followers and it grows every day, i am so happy about it.

I will make my own unique content, sometimes i will be writing about spiritual matter and self-help things but in other times i would like to publish articles about photography, sketching, abstract worldview, soul evolving, ghosts and many other things. Maybe even to post my home photos here to show you how i build and designed my own first home.

Anyways, be creative and you will be success here in steemit. I know that i will be, i hope you understand that if you are in correct energy vibe, you will be also very very successful.

But remember, do not to anything here just for money. Believe me, this will not work. You need to be express yourself and then you discover that you start to love this just for the joy and freedom that steemit community and its people will offer. What a loving feeling. I would personally want to write in every 5 minutes or so, i have so much to tell, but i need to make like max 5 posts per day so i keep it under control, well lets see about that

You will learn, that sometimes is better to fix your mistakes not to escape to another account ant start again. For an example, i started to to rectify my own channel.

Why do i believe in this? Well read below, i will be writing it down.

When i started here in steemit i didn't put any effort and time in this, because this was so strange, wild and unknown to me. When i first got this 30 dollar upvote, i heard from my friend, that it isn't just dollars, it is steem dollars. One steemdollar was worth 5 usd then. So i started to scream, i started to manipulate my ways to gain more steem dollars. I lost my soul.

So then i started to post different idiotic posts to gain more attention. It did not work.
I started to spam my posts, it made me feel bad, because it felt like i am raping my own channel, but then i did not care about my channel, all i was seeing was steem dollars.

Then i started to copy paste another bloggers posts, soon to realised that i got downvoted so much that i could not upload any more post for some time and my reputation was getting low.

And then i started to post in wrong tags sections, soon to discover also, that i got even more downvotes. So i did all of this that many of you does now. Then i started to miss this feeling when i first uploaded some quality content and unique post and somebody really apprecieted it with such a strong upvote. This recognition and enjoyment of the good qualities of someone or something, this feeling is just wonderful. You did created something and people liked it.

So i was thinking that i might start again by doing tottaly new steemit account and start blogging but i decided not, i decided to live all this downvotes that i gained by being an asshole and start lifting this sinking ship, i decided to make this my goal, to to rectify my bad behavior.

Now i just know, that if i write articles honestly and as they are, i will be helping steemit community by telling my own experience that failed me when i wanted to blog in steem via wrong goal.

First of all, i wanted to have my own unique photos as well, so i started to draw, just for steemit actually. I wanted to make best of it to be unique.

My goal now is to have my redemption and respect from all other positive thinking and unique content making bloggers by telling what new people should not do, because it wont help you. I will take a part in steemit cleaners, i will start to flag spammers and others who wont make content.

I will start to comment and upvote good content, i also will INVEST ALL MY STEEM DOLLARS in STEEM POWER and for by steemit channel benefit. This is really an long-term investment and i also want to make difference in here.

I want to be SOMEBODY, i want many followers and to be respected community member here.

So i will write more, but please start making your own content and follow me as i will have my redemption as well and start making content from my soul. As you read this you soon will see by yourself, that this post will gain much upvotes and comments, because i am certain this kind of honest blogs will be resteemed because this is what makes steemit so unique.

Express youself from soul and be honest. That is the only best way to be recognised and have a many followers and upvotes. Because we will not do this for steem dollars, but for our own enjoyment and as a greater opportunity in future as steemit, dtube, dsound, dmania will be greater and greater by growing bigger and bigger.

Start your journey now, with me, as same as you! You will see results soon, as do i see myself!

There are many good tips how to be populars and better in steemit, you will have to start digging into it. Always use correct tags also, and use all 5 tags even if you do not have any ideas, for an example i did use "reachout" for my last tag, just to getting myself attention, because i know i have a content, that whales like as also. We need to purify steemit soon and you know what guys? We are successful, so only option for you is to do as i did, to start be a good blogger.

Believe in yourself!

And here is something about liberty maybe, atleast speech of freedom.

I am one of those weed supporters. I am no hardcore activist, but i do not found this illegal - i mean there is no reasons to be illegal in MY PERSONAL WORLD VIEW. Wanted to say it out loud, so people know where i stand, atleast right now.

There has always been positive and negative molecules, sometimes even they bounce when together, it maybe isn't possible in science, but is possible in metafor.

People have argued a lot about ganja and they will be arguing about it in future. All i can do, is to start expressing my PERSONAL OPINION about this topic. So we will just make statistics public what people think about this.

My life has been stressful, black-and-white and strictful. There has been many deaths, illnesses and attitude problems with relatives.

Myself, i have been the selected black sheep, have always been somehow. In school also. There has been so much sleeping my life off, but no more, why i recovered bit by bit?

I have started to see life in some colors again, only because the cannabis. Literally lol.

But you know, actually this has helped me in so many ways. I am keeping calm, my mind is relaxed and i have noticed in my mind there has been some serious corrections in a positive way. I have been diagnosed with some mental ilnesses and i myself know best that i have treating it with cannabis. Nobody else, even the "professionals" could not see how my brain works and how my mind is working, where, why and how i get this feelings and thinkings, how my soul operates. So yes, by weed, there has been so many improvments with my depression. I can make myself aware of positive things and can coordinate my thinking better. So to say, shut off the bad negative attitude.

I ordered main domains in my country already, because i know soontobe legal medical plant will be change our country in so many positive ways.

So... now you all know where i stand and i hope you will not hate me as i am. Because i will not hate you.

Take care and if you liked this, then ofcourse let others know by resteeming, and follow me :)