At this point, I'd take whatever more days are cut out to celebrate women, I don't mind. The intention behind it, good or even bad, doesn't bother me anymore. I'm not bothered by the performativeness of it all, especially from businesses and organisations, I'll ride along with it.
Today is my day off work and I got to find out all the women were given half day off work so they only need to complete half target. I'm missing out on the mini-holiday because I'm off-duty, so when do I get mine? I'm a woman aren't I? Well, that isn't my cup of tea, the one that irks me is the fact that all the workload for the remaining half of the day today will still have to be done tomorrow. And guess who's on duty tomorrow? Me.
So I don't get the half-day off and I get more workload tomorrow on top of it? What's going on here? 😑 Why didn't everyone just do normal duty? You see why all this performativeness isn't right? Ugh. This isn't a very happy women's for me.
Anyway, that aside, today is a happy day for me. I had experienced a wave of sadness only a few days ago and I just got myself back. It was really bad, I felt so sad for majorly reasons unknown. What made it weird was that good things were happening to me, I ordinarily didn't have a reason to be sad with all that has happened recently but I was.
It started to look like I was ungrateful for the life that I have and the things that were happening to me. All I needed to feel was happiness but I sunk into a very depressed mode. It came and left like a bad cold and I may or may not know the triggers, but I hope I don't feel that way any time soon.
Happy Women's Day to all the beautiful, divine, sexy, fearless women out there. You're amazing, I'm amazing!