This year has been nothing short of wild. More like the wild, wild west for me. You know I started this year with a lot of enthusiasm, so much hope and a lot of goals lined up. Did I achieve these set goals? Not quite lol. I mean, I have never planned for any year like I did this year, and honestly, I think I’m starting to have a little regret.
The thing is, all the years that I was going with the flow seemed more productive than what I had this year. Maybe the challenges I had played a big role in why things didn’t go as expected for me. But then looking back and taking note of some highlights, I’d acknowledge that I indeed had a good run, plus bearing in mind that the end of the year is not the absolute end of my existence gives me the mental boost to prepare better for the coming year.
Again, for what it is worth, this year has not been completely hopeless, as earlier stated with the good run. For starters, despite losing my phone, I was actually able to purchase a better one. Not just that, but I was also able to do some decent shopping for myself. I had it so rough this year that depression was going to get the best of me, but I refused to head back to that sunken place.
This year I prioritised happiness. I did the things that made me happy, and most importantly, I appreciated myself. Before now I would always talk down on myself and beat myself up when I failed to actualise a set goal, but despite my shortcomings this year, I handled it like a champ, as I realised my shortcomings were a mere learning curve and not an inefficiency to define me by.
This year I appreciated my little wins and even my losses because they gave me an opportunity for upgrades. I guess it is safe to say that this is the year I’m finally maturing, and that, ladies and gentlemen, is one level unlocked for me in this journey called life.
Currently it is me not beating myself up or feeling inadequate over any shortcomings; instead, it is me saying, 'Better luck next time,' and looking forward to trying again while assimilating the lessons.
With all that has happened this year, I know what I want for the next, and I’m currently aligning my energy without planning ahead lol. I know reading this last line might sound absurd because how does one align their energy without planning towards the outcome of that alignment?
I mean, should aligning one’s energy to achieve a desired goal not be a step towards the planning process? Well, all I have to say is that when we get to the bridge, we’d certainly devise means to cross over.
Till then it will be me going with the flow, taking life as it comes while continuously hoping for the best. And for the rest of this year?? Well, I believe in last-minute miracles, and I just might have a compensating experience to make up for all that I have been through.
