There are things that come and go and there are things that lasts long it can be anything money,fame,relationship or even friendship. I try my best to convince myself that I’m a good person when it comes to keeping friendship cuz I don’t really have so many friends at once it’s either one friend or two and it’s okay for me. There’s this guy I met on my second day on campus and he’s in my department so he put me through some of the things I need to know and we became close, on a normal day I don’t smile with anyone or relate with people in my department but the fact that this guy is famous in our department and so many people know him for his intelligence so people started knowing me and gradually his friends are becoming my friends and I started relating more with people and I gradually become the most popular girl in my department. This guy is just a normal friend to me and I never saw him from a different perspective so in my head we’re good friends because I leave for my hostel early immediately after class this guy started leaving early too and I didn’t realize that he has drifted away from his friends and started focusing on me he even ignores his friends whenever we’re together but I felt it was normal and you know he carries my bag for me, buys things and even does some extras but I feel he was doing this because we’re friends even course mates gossip that we’re in a relationship but I never take it seriously.
This particular day came we had test and I didn’t really understand the question so I asked someone to explain after explaining I already knew what to write so when I finished I waited for a few people to submit theirs before submitting. After the test my friend and I had an argument and I just left the class and came back after two hours, this guy did a seventeen minutes voice note apologizing for what he did but deep down I know I was the cause of the argument but I just accepted his apology then few weeks later he asked me out, I didn’t see it as a big deal to go out with my friend but something came up so I couldn’t go then he later asked me to be his girlfriend, for my friend to be interested in me I was shocked cuz I always tell him things that I hate about guys and I didn’t understand why, for the fact that I’ve never seen him as a man cuz he was literally my closest friend was really shocking. I didn’t prolong things I gave him my answer on the spot and he wasn’t surprised cuz why would I date a friend at this point of my life so I told him no.
Anyone hearing this story would be like is he not good looking and stuff, yea he’s not , to me cuz right now there’s a chasm between us that can’t be fixed and I don’t ever want it fixed.
