This is my best part of the piece, because I feel like we spend most of our life waiting for challenges to stop or for the wave to stop before we allow ourselves peace. And I feel like I do that too, where I defer joy, I defer rest. In fact, I felt so sick.
I think it was even Therese that checked on me. I was just juggling a lot of things. I was not even in a good mental space.
And I was just deferring things. I'm someone who doesn't like procrastination. I like to do things immediately.
And I feel like I deferred a lot of things. When I needed to handle those things, I was sick. I was juggling a lot of things.
I was tired. Like, it was just a crazy time for me. And I feel like I get that from the piece now, where we are like, let things calm down, let the situation resolve, let the storm pass.
But you said something. Peace is not what comes after the wave. I think peace is that decision to float while it's still happening.
This is not like a reward. You have survived this storm or you take peace. No, it is like the posture that you have taken, even inside that chaos.
Like, I love that about your piece. Like, I don't believe it. I believe the statement completely and without reservation, because I feel like it's just a lived reality I experienced a while ago.
And I am getting the understanding now. So you also said, I stand here guided, not drifting, listening to the reading beneath my feet. And I'm like, I'm someone who is very particular about words.
You said guided, not drifting. And I feel like there's a distinction between that word. When you're drifting, I don't know, I saw, what do they call it? What is this bird that floats in the river? I think I went to one of these zoo parks and then I took pictures of them.
