I’ve Harmed Myself In Advance

I see how my desire to be accepted stretches me past myself, how effort turns excessive and care becomes something people feel pushed by,
I see how my desire to be accepted stretches me past myself, I admit I’ve worked so hard to be seen as good that I stopped being honest, that trade has cost more than I like to say,
I see how my desire to be accepted stretches me past myself, I confess I’ve begged for reassurance without words, with effort, with perfection, with constant proving,
I understand how my desire for acceptance pushes me beyond my limits, am I prepared to remain silent and still, allowing my worth to remain undisturbed,
I see how my desire to be accepted stretches me past myself, I loosen my grip and let the people around me breathe…