Birthday reflection and creative growth
Hello lovely people, Brilliant minds and creative hands, you're all welcome to my blog.
Guess what? Today is my birthday.
The journey of growth wasn't a smooth one but I'm proud of the woman I'm becoming. There were days I will lay quietly on my bed and question myself and there were also days i feel brand-new and i tell myself that I'm unstoppable i believe in my dreams my talents over the years i have not just dreamt i worked towards it and i can see that my efforts were never in vain. I survived every setback.
I realise growth can be peace and doesn't necessarily need to be all about chaos or needs to be loud. And I love peace and I appreciate peace. I make mistakes and I've learned to forgive myself. Forgiving yourself as a human it's difficult as easy as it may sound but that's one of the biggest gift you can ever give to yourself
Overcoming social anxiety
I once had social anxiety. I can communicate smoothly online but physically, I will become anxious.
But I know I wasn't born mute. My mum will always defend me ( my child is not mute just give her time).
But now it's different. I made friends, both in and outside of hive, not just friends but people who are part of my growth.
And I want to use this medium to appreciate you all for welcoming me into the hive family a few years ago.
The crochet journey
If you have been coming across my post in this Blockchain Of course you will already guess who made the outfit. I made them from my dress to the bag. They are my craft, strictly handmades.
Every stitch of my craft tells a story. A story only a crochet artist can understand.
When my hand hurts and tension becomes too tight.
When I make mistakes and realise I need to correct what my hands and eyes skipped and the only solution is frogging my craft.
Frogging is the painful part of crochet. When you're so eager to round up your craft and realize the stitches were not aligning anymore. The worst part is discovering your mistake was from the foundation.
A craft you have been working on for 8 hours and when it's time to frog it it won't take less than 5min.
But however, that is what makes crochet beautiful.
Yes crochet is a slow fashion but it teaches patience.
A lesson in problem solving
It happens a lot especially while making this dress.
This worked in peaks and valleys to achieve this pattern. And I learned a lot while working on this project.
I discovered there is a part of crochet I wasn't considering that will be needed which is measurement.
I really need to work on that. By the time I found out I made a mistake while trying to achieve the waist of my dress, I was already rounding up the shoulder part of the dress.
Losing and redoing it would have been the only decision right? But no, I told myself I won't frog it. I dropped it and rested for a while then I picked it up and examined it. My creative instinct was activated and I corrected my mistakes so neatly without frogging it.
For me this is growth. I was so proud that words can't comprehend how happy I was for achieving that. It was a beautiful moment I will forever cherish.
Final thoughts
I step into this new age with goals, discipline, and to become a better version of myself. Strong, wise, calm, resilience.
Happy birthday to me.
