All of us who have lived searching for the truth, have found ourselves on the road with many ideas that seduced us and lived in us with enough force to condition our belief system.
However, after time, many of the truths ended up being discarded because they did not support our internal questioning, or because a "new truth", incompatible with those, competed in us for the same spaces. or simply because these truths ceased to be true.
In any case, those concepts that we had had as referents ceased to be such and we were, suddenly, adrift. Owners of the rudder of our boat and aware of our possibilities, but unable to chart a reliable course.