It all happened 2 years ago , I was having a real hard time , a close friend of mine suffered an accident that literaly made her brains get on the sidewalk ,she lives today but you can imagine with some permanent brain damage.This is a story for another time ,plenty to say on this subject as well.A medical miracle story
Also had problems with my overall trust in myself , I couldn't finish medical school[got my license in the meantime] ,frustrations everywhere since childhood from lack of parents and overall trust in me.Also couldn't make my mother happy since my mind is all over the place and couldn't get a job.
Ok so I set the stage now gonna get to the task at hand.
It was the begining of the year ,snow everywhere , that eerie snow silence so I decided LET ME HAVE A BLAST THIS NIGHT.I wanted to drop some ACID and go snow sliding on the hill in our city ,since most of the winter we did not have snow I figured that was the night to do it.
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Dropped it, took 360micrograms of clean acid[i only had experience with weak acid,but plenty of experience with shrooms] ,went snowsliding and everything was perfect.Had a friend addicted to sinthethic weed/and alcohol having a sort of crisis near our group but that didn't ruin my trip[yet..] .I will write stories about him as well ,since he is still in a really bad position now.
Once I got home a friend of mine who dropped half my dose started a bong rip with some very mediocre but organic weed , the moment I saw him "GIMME THAT" .I don't usually smoke ,especially not much since I get high from very little and I literally ripped a 0.3grams in a few smokes=>2 Minutes later i felt how a powerful weight was put on my shoulders.I told my friend and my gf "get out please ,let's go out".
Outside it was dead silence , a lot of inches of snow ,we went through the city park and I could literally see auras in front of park lamp posts ,it was magical.
Then we started walking a bit more and some very dangerous thoughts were hitting me , I felt my heart racing like no tomorrow AND I WAS ENTIRELY sure I had to die, now, here,and I started freaking out at my girlfriend and trip buddy telling them this is the moment I die.
They were like calm the fuck down man and wait for it to pass but no one was getting through me , then it spiraled out of control .I started to scream out at the sky " REALLY ,THIS IS IT ? REALLY?" and the whole neighbourhood was sleeping you can imagine a maniac screaming at 01.00 hours how it looks.
What I thought is that the universe is a fucking hologram ,and I glitched it ,like some sort of bug , I thought i bugged the universe and woke it's true nature.And I was fucking damn proud of it.[I don't know why it hit me like that ,I didnt know any theories related to that conspiracy theory at that point in my life]!
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The snow looked like purple static , the sky looked like that as well. The cars seemed to be set-like cars made from paper , and my friend kept saying CALM THE FUCK DOWN MAN EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE OK. Why was he saying that , I thought he was some sort of computer program keeping in place telling me to shut the fuck up , I also thought of that about my girlfriend.That they are programs and I glitched them.
Then I wanted to start walking through walls but you can imagine that shit wasn't pulled off , since they were concrete walls.Then I passed out , I recovered and saw a car come and wanted to get in it.I only opened the car door and said to the guy fuck off man ,and proceeded going away from the car.[true wtf moment]
Then I passed out again and another friend came and took me in his car[called by my trip buddy and gf], where I calmed down a bit upon hearing his voice,he literally dragged me up since I couldn't walk and wouldn't walk and sat on his carpet until I woke from it.I had visions of spaceships and some sort of alien insemination of life on a planet ,thoughts on how I made my mother unhappy and I fuck everything up for everyone.I asked my girlfriend and trip buddy "Did what I think happened?" ..they were "yes" then I was -dead inside-.You can imagine the jokes on me on the coming weeks ,months & so on.
When I started waking up it was a shame feelings x1000000, I even thought I should check myself in a fucking mental hospital.The sentiment passed , I didn't touch any psychedelics for 6 months .On the long term it was ok
Moral of the story?
I guess it's just dont do drugs or if you do.. do it really careful,take all of the steps you need to take.I found out psychedelics and weed just don't mix well for me.
And ask for help if you feel dead inside , stop keeping everything in yourself and just ask true friends or just a psychiatrist for help.
It was probably the 6th time I took acid ,and it was a good batch but as you can see I did not handle it that well.
If anyone has any prefference about another story related to what I said in this one ,leave it in the comments and I will make it.Otherwise I will just post them at my own pace