Good evening steemians,
Ever felt the feeling of being in a routine and working so rigorously until the task was finished. Then you're in awe cause there's nothing to work towards? At the moment I feel like that after my finals had ended.
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Such a weird feeling being free of such a heavy burden. Though my exams were last Tuesday just now I know the final outcome of my grades,and can't tell you how much anxiety it is to see your grades move and adjust like the price for crypto. 4 or 8% is a big dip! Whenever a grade gets posted, I get a push notification and an email so I had to stop and check immediately. I kept hoping for grades to be locked in and sealed. But nope they kept changing until I got home from work. Anywho, here's some good news! I got promoted to the next class! I did better than a B. I got straight A's! Well A- but an A is an A for me. It really made me happy to work full time and go to school 2/3s full time and get A's towards my first semester in my Master's Degree. It was a huge sense of accomplishment! I think I can go into my winter vacation with peace of mind (as long as there's no disaster at work).
Most of my activity has been at work. As soon as I get home I tumble into bed or the couch unless there's errands to do. Just so hard to find the interesting points of the day with so much on my mind. Even at work, I feel like there's Soo much commotion. I had to focus on singular tasks or get overwhelmed in details or other people's responsibilities. -lesigh- I still feel like I'm floating between three major projects and I worry my quality of work is suffering cause of it and not meeting the bottom line. Eh… eventually it'll get done… babysteps.
Prior to winter break we're preparing to close the department. Planning software deployments with in house scripts, meetings planning data migrations and first batch of users to use it. Sometimes I want to work at it home and not have my focus and attention divided but home is for rest. Past couple days my mum and I were planning on going to the movies but bed is just so cozy.
Kinda sucks when your work is on a computer screen, your studies, your entertainment, your social. It's so difficult to unplug and rest your eyes. I worry I'll waste my winter vacation behind a screen and doing errands. Not sure how to make the best of my vacation. Mum was hinting a weekend cruise but I just hope work can leave me alone for the break and no last minute requests or stuff to brush up on.
Before I leave you, I want to share a relaxing Melody from NieR Automata Arranged Unreleased tracks.
NieR:Automata Arranged & Unreleased Tracks - 2. Peaceful Sleep (Arranged by Cheng Bi/Masato) uploaded by Belzifer
Some are able to relax with a movie or show,but for me I get antsy and need to channel my energy into something. One day, I'll find a way to contribute towards a better future I'm proud of… one babystep at a time. Let that be my legacy
