Might Seem Daunting But One Step At A Time

Good evening steemians,
Another Monday behind us. And OhMaiGoodness it kicked my butt…

It was a dark rainy day coming into work. Today was the beginning of a new schedule, I'm glad to have a subordinate under my shift again. Though they weren't familiar how busy the morning shift could be. I'm glad we were able to do it together rather than being solo. I had a surprise from my boss that I had to do inventory of all the analog and network phones for 3 different buildings and every room in them. And it had to be done very soon. After morning prep we grabbed laptops and split the list. We finished it in 3 hours. And it left me so tired. My feet were not happy with me. I should have worn flats or something comfortable ^o”

When the big duties were done, I couldn't think about anything else but my homework and I was dreading coming to class with nothing. Professor always prompts about current events or his thoughts about the previous assignment. By the time I turn it in and dealing with the day to day at work the next day… I already forgot everything. Lesigh. I'm sure it's a problem with me or something. Today he was pretty grumpy that some students plagiarized on the last assignment. Granted it was an assignment defining terms and it's difficult to paraphrase stuff from a dictionary and make the concept appealing to you (especially when you barely read 1/5th of the reference material) but I did my best. Luckily he didn't scold me directly but I imagined many struggled the same.

My current assignment is discussing what is the GDPR (General Data Protection Regulation) and how it affects the global internet and how other countries could make their own similar policy. But honestly I've been looking at this for three days and I still can't really understand it. I feel like I'm in trouble and dealing with a mental hurdle. I'm also worried about my semester term paper to choose a topic that encompasses all the topics discussed in the class. I'm glad the professor gave an extension on that paper. But it's a lot to do and only a few days to do it. Then the class will be over.

From Akatsuki no Yona

And I'll be left frazzled and confused of what just happened. As long as I pass the class that's all I care about.

After a long review of everything we have gone over. I sat at my desk and didn't know what to do. Should I stay overnight and work on my homework until I have to go to work? I dunno I feel ashamed that I'm pacing myself and not getting a lot done at my job or at school. And there's another doctor's appointment tomorrow… it just feels daunting I'm spinning my wheels and barely moving. I really don't want to upset and disappoint my peers. I want to do well…

I'm still listening to my Portal and FTL playlist to help me stay motivated. Even though Portal music is electronic and meant to be the sounds of science in a lab facility it's just soo alluring with it's ambiance. Like this song is the title screen to the game before starting your adventure. It certainly set the atmosphere of what's to come.