This is a really cool post. at one point in my process I understood energetic addictions as really being the only thing stopping us from truly changing ourselves/the world. I have tried giving up ALL energetic addictions at one point and din't last very long....it was hell. I also found it extremely disheartening to see that virtually no one around me was willing to even consider such a point. On the other side of that reaction I have the greatest respect for Destonians and what it means to be a Destonian, but that respect is yet to be lived fully.

I have been thinking about trying to give up again cold Turkey. I've thought about all of the new constructive and creative REAL things that I could put the money that I use to support addictions into. I could build something real that lasts for generations. I know I can do it, I have done it several times, but I often feel as though I need a "break" from my every day routine to assist with the withdrawal period. The addictions have become such a part of my daily life/work life and survival patterns that going through the withdrawal while working feels like a daunting and overwhelming prospect.

Suggestions/insights/perspectives are welcome as I have struggle with this point for some time but ultimately I am aware that there is no other real way forward, there is no real free choice, and I 'owe it to myself' to 'give life a chance'. after it is not like I will cease to exist when I stop - and that is kind of the fear - who am I? what will I be? and yet, to answer those questions, to be the creator of oneself is what it does mean to really live.

Thanks for sharing Gian.