Thorn In The Side Of My Flesh
The mental obsession,
It calls me every time, every day with no recession
It won't go away, no, it won't leave me.
It won`t let me go, closer it held me
It leads me astray.
I felt ease with each each sip
I felt awesome with each strike
Then comes the feeling after the high feeling
Down to my own shame.
Help me o`creator, I need to be strong;
The days are so short,
my nights are long.
Do for me oh mighty creator,
what I can`t do for myself;
Put me away on some high moral shelf.
I fall on my face;
I curl up and pray,
Please take it lord, please keep it at bay.
The mind is locked in,
nothing else can I think;
The sweet evil inside me
gives a laugh and a wink.
I have no control,
It's a thorn in my side.
there is nowhere to run.
The thorn in my side gives off heat like the sun
It's hot, it's burning,
Who will quench this thirst for me.
I look for some answer, a proverb, a verse;
As the darkness surrounds me a prayer I
rehearse.
Then finally it’s plain that release must be had;
My soul deep in sadness my addiction so bad;
My fist pounds the table, why can`t I let go?
The thorn in my side makes a prisoner my soul.
The morning sun breaks to yet one more day.
My heart drops like a rock, my senses astray.
The black hole is deep and it's end can't be
found;
The thorn in my side, in my misery I drowned.
The darkness returns and the demonic beast;
My flesh is destroyed—my soul is its feast.
The heart is no matter my prayers go unheard;
The creator has abandoned—I scoffed at his word I read through
I awoke in the night to bright light rushing in;
The demons all scurried and they ran from
within;
Lighting and thunder, trumpets and wind;
It's another day, and the fight never ends
The thorn in the side of my flesh,
A mark of my life struggles for freedom.
There is hope, keep fighting, keep believing
Freedom awaits.
#againstaddictions
#selfcontrol
inspired by the life of Charis and William power
I am
love will fall a frozen heart
