After I survived the bomb attack, I later lost my two Sons. It was pain on top and beyond pain. I thought I will never see peace in my entire life. I wake up to ask myself this question. What is the meaning of pain?!!?...Pain can appear in physical or mental or emotional level. This types of pain is evidently only just different sides of one center 'the point of personality'' Both pleasure and pain have a home in Man. Man is created to answer to their lightest touch. The same way there are two great opposites of the soul, 'male - Female' pain and pleasure stand apart and separate as do the two sexes. It is in the merging of the two into one that can make a baby and this is where the point of peace can be found. The center where there is neither male nor female, neither pain nor pleasure is when god in man can dominate. Pain and pleasure exist for its use and purpose. My life as I knew it was changed for ever. It has made me look at life differently from the natural eyes to inner eyes. The real meaning of our existence is hidden away from our physical eyes. I am still leaning to understand who I am and why I am here.