Last night, I slept really badly. Just as I was beginning to unwind for the night, the owners of the land, that I stay on, came to get me as they had found an injured dog outside the land. I went along with my friend D (another animal lover), who also lives on the land, to investigate.
This is not the dog I am writing about,(taking a picture of her, was the last thing on my mind) instead this is my beautiful companion Freya. She has been with me for close to 9 years now and I could not imagine my life without her.
I have unfortunately seen quite a few injured dogs in my time, but this was one of the worst. This poor dog, who was probably only a year old, had a huge wound on it's leg, that was infested with maggots and smelt really bad. It was obvious the wound was old and had been left untreated.
It looked like some of the bone was missing.(possibly eaten away, can you imagine how painful that would be.) This poor creature was terrified and completely stressed out and didn't want us anywhere near her. My heart was breaking. She was not used to human contact, so there was no way we could comfort her.
We got some food and put some drops of CBD oil in it, she really wasn't interested in food, but we did manage to get a few drops of the oil into her, before she dragged herself away. This had me in tears.
It was after midnight at this point and there is no Vet open here at the weekend. I didn't know what to do, I knew she needed to be put out of her misery, but I also knew I couldn't do it. We all felt so hopeless.
Each of us wishing that she would pass away in the night.
Every time, I tried to close my eyes, I saw her and how much she was suffering. It just kept going round and round in my mind. I don't know what time it was, when I eventually fell asleep.
When I woke up this morning, my friend had already checked on her and she was still alive. My heart sank. We then organised a car so that she could be brought to the vet. Part of us hoped she could be saved, but mostly importantly we wanted her to no longer suffer.
I couldn't go to the vets, as I had to stay with my two youngest girls (my eldest was on a sleepover). That beautiful being, died on the way to the vet. Mostly I was relieved that she was now at rest, but it was such a sad start to our day.
It's so hard for me to understand, how some people can be so cruel and just leave animals to die in such a way. But that happens a lot here, especially among the older generations.
We found out that she belongs to a goat herder who has around 14 dogs, all with old injuries and scars. I plan to go into town tomorrow to speak with a friend of mine, who can hopefully help me convince this man to neuter his females, as they keep having puppies and also let us try and re-home some of them.
I have to try, what I witnessed, was too heartbreaking and no being deserves to suffer so. I know that I can't live here and ignore what is happening around me.
All I know, is that I put it out into the universe that I wanted to start a rescue centre and although I don't really have the means to start it now, it just goes to show you the power of manifestation. If not now, then when!
