A year ago I lost a loved one and I went into depression, it was seeing life without anything exciting, it was not me, it was my soul that made everything around me negative, I tried thousands of times to seek help but my mind refused to accept help someone else. Who wants to have a person like me in their life? It was very, very, very difficult to get all that away from me, I am trying to thank every day that I am alive, it is the only thing I can do, but it still costs me a lot